flying high-err
As you must have been notified by now with a dozen emails, Amal has ended (not literally :D). You must have lived those moments as well when you dream and talk of something happening and then that thing happens and you are left with oh it went by too soon (or in Urdu, Pata bhi nahi chala, Kal ki baat hy). No, Amal fellowship’s end does not leave me with that feeling. Because I remember too well all the things we did, all the late-night sessions and those after all-nighters and the Project works and the emails and repeating we are extremely lucky to have these people many times a day. Maybe I am simply a person who believes a little more in the fantastic than the ordinary.
Bringing all these feelings to the last session was a bad idea. In the session where people were casually talking and participating in the scavenger hunt, listening to the music, and cracking awkward jokes, I felt out of place. Now I know everyone deals with their emotions differently, and I strongly accept and support it, I just do not understand how everyone could be so nonchalant about the ending. So by the time, people started talking about it, ( I heard someone gave a speech), I had already dropped out because of how underwhelming it turned out to be, on the pretext of getting ready for a meetup.
Now when I am facing the question that goes like this, What was it like to just talk and connect? Do you think it is important to connect and do things just for your emotional uplift sometimes, even without a focus on work? I do not really know what to say, yes I believe in doing things for the emotional uplift, yes I would not care if it were not focused on work, but I would not do well with an attempt at denying something that is happening and needs to be addressed.
They say time dilutes everything so I am hoping it would work sooner and make us all go back to when we were flying higher than expected. Having connected with everyone on Facebook, LinkedIn, and WhatsApp makes me believe we will never not be in touch, so yeeeeeeeet for that!
Kher! Let’s leave what has gone by where it belongs now and keeping those feelings of disappointment aside, move on once again to talk about the fantastic. The world of hopes, and dreams, the world of the future. I cannot help but notice that I have adapted to a few of Amal values like punctuality and juststarting, but what I am most excited to take to the future arethe Amal Totkay, believing that these are the most crucial to my journey and growth.
Until next time! One last time :’’)
